Forgiveness

I say it

But I don't feel it

I need it

Yearn 

And want it

But the little 

Black hole of pain

Of anger

Keeps me from

Letting it go

Forgetting

Never can truly do that

But I will learn

Use the hurt to

Propel me forward

Use the pain as a guide

Stay open to life

But not get taken

For another

Potential ride

Truth

I've hidden behind a wall

Guarded by what I remember

Truth

I can not hide anymore